Selfishly selfless?

After months of trying to stay afloat in the relationship, I finally decided to end it. I had been miserable for so long, drowning in sadness I couldn’t seem to escape. My partner didn’t know how to deal with my pain, and honestly, I couldn’t blame him — even I didn’t know how to handle it myself. Somewhere along the way, I became selfish. Everything revolved around my pain. Every action, every word, I justified by how much I was hurting. I didn’t care how anyone else felt; all I cared about was numbing the ache that lived inside me. And I knew everyone around me was feeling it with me, but not for me.

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A cousin in memoriam

Until Tuesday I had a cousin, a cousin who was born as my aunt her son, his big sister’s brother and one of my grandmother’s grandson. He was born the cutest little baby boy we called Jerome as kids. He was years younger so I remember my older cousin babysitting and my earliest memory of us was my cousin changing his diaper. I also remember doing homework with him and his sister, which I of course had no patience doing. But childhood memories are priceless.

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To love and let go

I was one week back on this Island, almost two weeks into the new year. Work was not really busy so I finally had some time to do some reading, writing, movies and go to the beach. But it was the rainy season with lots of wind, so hanging by the beach for too long left me with a cold stomach and I had the flu. So what’s left to do was reading and writing, which I had done a lot of that weekend. I picked up reading ‘To love and let go’ from Yoga Girl Rachel Brathen and jeez I couldn’t have picked a better time to read this book (*sarcastically). Continue reading