I started this blog as BunnyYogaJourney in 2016 to type down the extra feelings I had. Writing became my way to cope with everything I was going through. Whenever life felt too heavy, yoga brought clarity, and written words were like a sigh in savasana. Through my practice, I began unfolding layers of myself I never knew existed. I needed a space to express those feelings, to let them be heard without judgment, especially because I was the on judging myself the hardest. I named it BunnyYogaJourney because my partner at that time called me Bunny, and everything I was expressing came from what my yoga journey was awakening in me.

When I started life coaching, I asked my life coach to read some of my blogs so she could understand and guide me better. To not only read the words, but also to notice what was hidden between the lines. I asked her not to judge me, so I could really open up to her, because I was terrified of being judged. Looking back, I’m not even sure if others were really judging me or if I was judging myself. At some point, I hit writer’s block, I couldn’t write a complete blog anymore. So I turned inward and started journaling, spiraling through my thoughts, untangling them privately. But I’ve always wanted to come back to doing this, except after all that has been happening in my life, after all the progress I’ve made, BunnyYogaJourney no longer felt like the right name. So I changed it to PathToSelfDiscovery.

My life coach became my guide. It never occur to me that everything that had ever happened to me so far was all connected. That the way I was raised as a child, the kinds of love I received, the pain I carried, had so much impact on the person I became. I realized I was dealing with PTSD, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, and I wanted to redefine it. So I reimagined it as Path To Self Discovery, PTSD.

The most beautiful realization I’ve had through all of this is that awareness is power. Once I became aware of my patterns, I could finally step back, observe, and choose differently. I didn’t have to be the victim anymore. I could be the student, healing, growing, and learning who I truly am and can be.

Spending time with myself, truly getting to know myself was the best thing I ever did for me. I went from resenting who I was to understanding, accepting and eventually loving her. I started to forgive her, appreciate her and take care of her. What began as BunnyYogaJourney has evolved into my Path To Self Discovery, one that I’m sure I will be walking for the rest of this beautiful life.