My boyfriend, (yes I have boyfriend now, I mean manfriend, since he’s not a boy anymore and I’m not a girl, so with that saying I’m his woman and yes I’m flaunting now, because why not, but right focus Sjefi! I haven’t shared much on my blog lately so I felt like I had to introduce him, but yeah I will continue this blog soon enough, as if right now)

My boyfriend gifted me this bracelet the first days/ weeks (I can’t remember, cause we old). It’s a couples black volcanic lava bead bracelet with chakra crystals. I’m really not sure why he got us these bracelets and I never asked but everytime I look at this bracelet I notice how much it reflects our relationship thus far.

The root “I am safe”: This was the first thing I noticed and the reason why I decided to stay. Because with this man I feel safe. It was in the way he held me the first night and everytime we are together ever since. It’s not the usual touch, it’s one that feels like a shield, so protective I can relax and let my shield down, while he has his up for the both of us.

The sacral “I am creative”: It seems like my creativity is awakening after a long enough nap. And I cannot contain my excitement feeling like this. Where do I even start? Or what do I pick back up.

The solar plexus “I am strong”: All I’ve known is to stay strong, whatever life throws at you, just be strong. At some point I got tired and allowed myself to be weak, which was not a bad thing after all as I found strength in my weakness. So with that being recharged, being strong is the way to go.

The heart chakra, “I am loved”: I’ve struggled with this one big time. How to love, how to be loved? But you know, key is Love yourself first, that’s the ultimate love. There is no how to be loved, there is only love. And while I enjoyed my time as a single lady, I’ve learned how to love myself along the way. So this being loved thing is not new, but it is kind of, now that I love myself and with every struggle he simply says “Just be yourself” and all will fall into place. And that brings me back everytime to the work I’ve done and the fact that he so much honors that. To me that means a whole lot.

The throat chakra “I am expressive”: For the first time in my life I’ve noticed I actually wanna make an effort of verbally expressing myself. I’m not there yet, but I’ve taken the first step. I probably won’t say “I love you” or “I need help” yet, but I feel safe enough to verbally express my feelings, cause one question I get everyday is “How do you feel?” instead of “How are you?” and I know it seems close but everytime he asks I check into my feelings, I might not tell everytime, but it’s a check in for me.

The third eye “I am connected”: I remember telling some people, it’s like I can’t connect, asif I have difficulty to co-exist. And I’ve learned that this is okay, I cannot expect to connect on demand. It requires a particular state of energy to see and think clearly.

The crown “I am divine”: I was in Aruba when I spontaneously decided to get the peace sign tattooed on my wrist, as a reminder for myself that there is peace within myself and that I can radiate this from the inside out. And that I need to be one with everything that is me in this life: mind-body-soul, past-present-future.

Maybe it’s just a bracelet he got me, of which I’m not sure he knows the meaning of this knowledge re-entering my life. It’s why the lotus of IMPerfectYogi has 7 leafs, inked on the back of my heel. It is the colors of the rainbow and that is why for now this will be my rainbow love.