Not so recently ago, I decided overnight to “quit” my job. Yes the most stupid thing I could ever do, if I think about it. But up until now it has been one of the best-est stupidest thing I could have ever done.

I had several reasons for me quitting my job. I still loved what I was doing very much, don’t get me wrong, but the conditions were not very fascinating. The thing is, I had to be at work at 8, lunch at 12 and leave at 4.  I had to get permission for leave and actually sit there and do as I was told. It felt like somebody or the company owned me during working hours.

And all this was still okay if I actually could get some work done, cause might I remind you, I do love what I was doing very much. So whenever there was not much to do, I still had to be at work at 8, lunch at 12 and leave at 4. At some point I really didn’t see the logic in this. In order for me to get paid every month, I actually just had to be at work from 8-4, Mondays till Fridays and get permission for leave days. So boringly predictable and assigned. Nope, after 11 years of working in corporate world, it finally hit me that this was not working for me … anymore!

So I decided to quit my job. Yup, just like that. No assurance or rethought plan whatsoever for the next big step. But at this moment, it was the best time for me to take a leap of faith. My partner had just gotten a new job and we decided it was time for me to finally get done what I wanted to do. And I didn’t have other responsibilities like children or loans, so I just did it.

There was one thing on the back of my head though, that had me worried sick. I was used to a monthly salary and I did get paid very well by this company I was working for at the time. So I thought to myself what is it, that is holding me back? Doubt, insecurity, fear? Everything I was telling my students in yoga class to let go, I was holding on to. And that was it for me, I had to walk the talk. Like a dear friend used to tell me.

Now fear is a small word with humongous power. But power is imaginary and it gets as big as you imagine it to be. When you can tune in, reflect and have mindful conversations with yourself (as cray cray as it may sound) you can feel the path of your heart and that fear is all in the mind. And if you take the time to do so, you can balance between heart and mind and decide: In this moment, in this life, what is the best thing for me to do?